It begins with Confidence and a Friendly nature. Add Willingness... and you end up in student government and a team captain. A lot of unpaid time, but rarely stressful. 'Popularity' is a nice by-product.
Then it advances... you are Organized and Committed to seeing things through. You Finish that which is laid before you, which is so uncommon that you end up with a title and more unpaid time.
Eventually you notice people are always waiting on you to make Decisions.
"I don't know any more about this than you"
"I don't know what to do"
But it doesn't matter. They wait on you anyway.
Stress arrives in full-force, and your Level-Head continues, whatever the work is. Everything is expanding, and the challenges faced regard New Territories. Confidence comes forward, and onward we go.
Who knew going into all of this how much you can be stretched? Character becomes a centroid, an exhausting reality. Character is never satisfied with itself.
Enter dark times. Bigger than me. Bigger than anything I can grasp, control, or understand. Leadership at a level previously untested is required.
It begins with a willingness to help
Then a willingness to make decisions
to finish the tasks
to search out answers in a new world
to deal with yourself and your faults
Here I am making decisions that hurt some to protect others.
Heavy
Walking forward without joy
Stretched and thin and frail
Amazed at how life just keeps coming at me..